Pregnant!

I am so thankful for this blessing. I have to admit that I am very nervous about it though.

Dwelling on others is something that I get so caught up doing. I need to stop checking up on what is going on in the lives of other people because I just end up getting jealous because I don't have something.

Its just so hard. I need to think about just what is going on with me and not want what others have. There are times when I so badly want to get pregnant so that I have my own child. But then there are times when I want to give up on trying to get pregnant because I dont think that my body can handle it or that I can get pregnant. I guess the way I think of it is that if I say that I don't want to get pregnant to others then it won't be so hard for me to accept that it might not happen to me.

I know that I really should not lose hope. I'm only 22 and I have alot of time still, but I'm still scared. I'm terrified that it will never happen to me. I just want one healthy baby. I don't smoke or drink, but I see others around me who get pregnant and live a high-risk lifestyle.

There are things that I need to change in my life. I need to eat better and stay more active. Maybe it will come someday. I just need to be happy with where I am in my life now.

Scenty in Guam.

I now a Scentsy Consultant. I figured that since I love the product so much and I have no job right now, I might as well dabble into something that I think that I can do.

I think that Scentsy is such a great thing and I wish that I knew more about it when I first started college. Its hard when you live in a place where open flames are not allowed. I did not even know much about Scentsy until I received one last Christmas from my mother in law. I love how there is so many different scents and that it does last a very long time.

I am excited about this opportunity and I hope that I do well in this.

So yesterday I had another interrview. It was for an AP position, but I am not sure if I got it or not, but thats alright because I have another interview today in about an hour. I am nervous. I really need a job. I need something to do and it would be nice to make money doing it.

I must say that I have the best husband ever. He bought me a new vehicle yesterday. We went and looked around and I really liked the Ford Escape so we got a quote from one place and brought it to another place and bought it there. I even got to drive it home last night. Car shopping done in one day. My first new car and its so exciting. I am so happy with it and I feel so very lucky to have a husband like him.

It took 25 days until I finally get a call for an interview and I must say, I am so excited. Its not an ideal position, but its a job and I am happy that things are finally looking up for me. I must have applied to over 15 places and this is the first call I am getting. I hope that the interview goes well and that I get an offer. I need money. I need to start saving up for our future, and I would really like to keep this house cool without worry about how much the bill will cost and if we will overspend on the electric bill.

Being married is great, just all the other things are just so time consuming. I have not changed my name on anything really. I just got my military dependent card awhile ago, but now I have to go change my name on my Social Security Card, then DMV is next, then bank accounts, my college, student loans, passport. So much work.

This Friday, I have an appointment for my medical screening so I could possibly get command sponsorship which would be great because that means that I will have somewhat of a preference when it comes to getting a job on a military installation or a DOD job.

Things are starting to come together, and I am loving my life a married woman. I would just like to have a good career to come with my family.